|Okay, not the best picture, my hair |
looks a lot more grey due to the light
behind me, really I'm not that grey!
It has been a year now since I decided to allow my hair to grow out from the short easy cut I have worn since my children were small. It was easy to have a wash and dry haircut when you live a very busy lifestyle.
Then one day last August (2010) I went to get another haircut and told my stylist that I wanted to grow my hair out, just shape it up for this change in length I would be going through. I don't know what I was thinking, I just knew I wanted to grow my hair out. When I announced this to my family, they all looked at me in disbelief, I have gotten used to that "look" from them. This is not the first time I made an announcement they all thought was rather strange and out of character. I share this with much laughter.
Now a year has passed. Having only one little trim to even the sides to the back. My hair is still thick and even a little wild, humidity does things to it that I have no control over. It is now long enough to pull back, but I am having trouble with that look, I also think pigtails went out when I became a teenager..... I am also having trouble that there is so much grey in my once very dark hair.
I wonder, what was I thinking, growing my hair out. Now I look at pictures of myself with short hair and I don't know who that person is. I have gotten used to seeing this longer hair. I have this notion that I want it all one length, no bangs, no layers. Now most of it is shoulder length, the sides are a little shorter. A year of changes for me.
Funny things have happened in my evolution of dealing with my hair through the years. When I was a small child, I remember having my hair tied up in "rags" when it was wet, when it dried and the ties were pulled out, I had Shirley Temple curls. As a teen, I slept on rollers at night (the things we did to look beautiful). In the 70's I had long hair until it was slowly trimmed shorter and shorter. Electric rollers in the 80's and most recently the curling iron were my means of styling my hair.
Now slowly I am going backwards in my styling, I have purchased rollers, I hate them. I have new electric rollers and even the pink sponge rollers (almost like tying "rags" in my hair). No one thing is making me happy, I again wonder when I will be finished with "this" stage of growing out, looking forward to much longer locks.
I ponder the grey hair too, a sign of my maturity, a sign of wisdom (?), a sign of acceptance......... I wish I knew. As for coloring my grey........... I am afraid, what if it looks awful, do I really want to continue with coloring the grey roots? There are always so many questions and no easy answers.
I will tell you, I like having hair on my neck, it feels good to me. I do like pulling it up on a hot day, I like it blowing in the breeze, even it it means getting messy and a little wild. I do like knowing that it has been a year, I really survived a year of growing my hair out. I think it is getting easier this growing out process. I have no intention of going short after making it this far.
So, it is still growing.............