|Jessie, 1999 - 2013|
During the her last month, she rallied many times. As always she kept a close eye on me while I mowed. I tried to sneak away to check bluebird boxes in the horse pasture and here she would come, checking on me and things hiding in the grasses. I would give her a ride on the gator home when she got out that far. She looked at me with grateful eyes.
She came to us quite by accident. I worked for a veterinarian at the time, probably not a good place for an animal lover, I was always bringing home critters. Once a pair of love-birds, cats and then a stray lab that had come in to be spayed. She was very beautiful, soft eyes and still young, although she'd had a litter of puppies by then. I brought her home in the front seat of the car that day, she looked like she belonged there, quietly happy. The next day her sedation was totally worn off and I realized she was still a puppy herself!
She followed me everywhere, once she was following my bluebird trail while I checked boxes. The trail took her more than a half a mile from home in the hottest part of the day, I had to load her on the three wheeler I was riding to bring her home because she was so hot. I rolled her over and sprayed cold water on her belly and she thought I was GOD himself. She loved her belly being sprayed when it was hot and humid.
|Jessie's hunting buddy, Gabby|
She also love sleeping in the tipi with me, always on guard, often fleeing from the tipi in the middle of the night to investigate some noise in the darkness. She was faithful and loving to the end.
This morning I forced her to get up and go outside. Her breath was very labored and she was having issues controlling her bowels. At one thirty last night I was cleaning up vomit and poop. (My gag reflex is working well!) Richard and I talked about putting her down and agreed that her quality of life was rapidly going down hill. This is the hardest thing in the world to do, making this decision about another's life. We talked about a grave place, having our son help dig the resting place and I called the vet. Everything was set.
When Jessie went outside this morning, she headed for the flower beds and lay down. Not a good sign, dogs often like to go off and be alone when the time is near. I watched her labored breathing, convinced myself I was making the right decision by calling the vet. I went to her, stroked her soft ears and talked to her, telling her it was okay to go, that she would feel much better by leaving, giving her permission........ I also ask that she tell all the other critters we have watched pass from this world into spirit world, that we missed them and were sending love with Jessie. Don't you know she passed quietly right before my eyes. I have lost yet another faithful dog and my heart hurts today.